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Sunday, June 24, 2007
it's just my heart, that's all.
I'm realizing more each day, just how real our love is. It's not something chancy, it's not shallow, it's not hormones, it's something more. Just when I think I have you figured out, I've got your faults and talents all figured out, you surprise me again. I realize there's more to you than even I see, and that's saying something. Life before you is fuzzy, and relationships before almost nonexistent. It's like you've always been there, which is weird, because you haven't. I'm glad that married life won't always be the "known". While being married will cause us to know each other even more, there will still be things to learn and always will be. That is because we each will not become stagnant, but constantly changing people.
I cried today over a certain youth. It has been a long time since that happened and I am so relieved to know that God still has compassion in my soul for this ministry. It's hard to decipher these days what things are routine and what has been ordained. As I thought about you, and prayed over my attitude toward you, I realize that there is still compassion for this ministry, for this calling. The day I do not have compassion on youth, is the day I should quit. Compassion is necessary for life, for following Christ, as described by Sam in his brilliant graduation speech. God, please continue to move my heart. Things are changing, so rapidly, and you must be in the middle of this somehow: Avery leaving, John stepping out, leaders graduating and a whole new crew of young people. Help me, give me wisdom, I cannot ever do this on my own.
Annabeth is over, kids are a lot of work. This is a good lesson for me to learn. :) Dear body, please adjust quickly, I hate nausea and that's what I'm anticipating. John moves out this week, man life is way too hectic. Tomorrow I take my car in, hopefully he has room for me and that it's not too expensive. Alright, time to pack and watch cable tv. peace.
Archives
June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008
Sunday, June 24, 2007
I'm realizing more each day, just how real our love is. It's not something chancy, it's not shallow, it's not hormones, it's something more. Just when I think I have you figured out, I've got your faults and talents all figured out, you surprise me again. I realize there's more to you than even I see, and that's saying something. Life before you is fuzzy, and relationships before almost nonexistent. It's like you've always been there, which is weird, because you haven't. I'm glad that married life won't always be the "known". While being married will cause us to know each other even more, there will still be things to learn and always will be. That is because we each will not become stagnant, but constantly changing people.
I cried today over a certain youth. It has been a long time since that happened and I am so relieved to know that God still has compassion in my soul for this ministry. It's hard to decipher these days what things are routine and what has been ordained. As I thought about you, and prayed over my attitude toward you, I realize that there is still compassion for this ministry, for this calling. The day I do not have compassion on youth, is the day I should quit. Compassion is necessary for life, for following Christ, as described by Sam in his brilliant graduation speech. God, please continue to move my heart. Things are changing, so rapidly, and you must be in the middle of this somehow: Avery leaving, John stepping out, leaders graduating and a whole new crew of young people. Help me, give me wisdom, I cannot ever do this on my own.
Annabeth is over, kids are a lot of work. This is a good lesson for me to learn. :) Dear body, please adjust quickly, I hate nausea and that's what I'm anticipating. John moves out this week, man life is way too hectic. Tomorrow I take my car in, hopefully he has room for me and that it's not too expensive. Alright, time to pack and watch cable tv. peace.
restoredhope;
Isaiah 61
The Spirit of God, the Master, is on me because God anointed me.
He sent me to preach good news to the poor, heal the heartbroken,
Announce freedom to all captives, pardon all prisoners.
God sent me to announce the year of his grace
- a celebration of God's destruction of our enemies
- and to comfort all who mourn,
To care for the needs of all who mourn in Zion,
give them bouquets of roses instead of ashes,
Messages of joy instead of news of doom,
a praising heart instead of a languid spirit.
Rename them "Oaks of Righteousness" planted by God to display his glory.
I'm a
*God serving *youth loving *rollercoaster riding *vanilla latte sipping *mac using *joke making *wagon driving *80's crazed *T.V. hating *yet LOST adoring *Halo playing *H2O drinking *legal assisting *text messaging *JDC stalking *wedding planning *LIFE graduating *livejournaling *Hanson listening *5 piercing *dancing fool
without her I'd be less.
